well... last
nite i really
nv slp well... keep dream of the tombstone...
haiz... anyway reason is that i worry
abt gk safety... damn la... y wan let
ppl worry for u...
haiz... anyway... me also got a
gd chance to chat
wif her mom... her mom really damn worry
abt her...
haiz...
hmmm... well... from her mom... i
noe that she is really rebelling hard against her parents... me not surprise
abt that... at that age... i also rebel
alot and even make my mom cry
alot sia... now i think everything is over
le ba...
haha... now think back of it... i feel that i m quite useless
sia... ya... useless in the sense that i cannot really help to guide her to the right path and she might take the path i used to take and the history might repeat again in front of my eyes once more...
haiz... damn... i dun wish her take the suffering that i take and add on to her currently suffering (which is her weak body). i dun think she can really take those blows... but till now... i still angry with her
abt sth she told me... she say she dun care
abt her
ownself... she told me she dun
guarantee that she would not hurt herself... and
thats the words i really hate
de most...
ur parents take so much of effort to bring u up until so big and spend so much money to get
ur health back... and now u tell me u r not gonna care
abt urself... damn u... if u think like this... u only gonna make
ur parents effort go into vain and also... taking their care and love for nothing but like rubbish and throw them away into drain... and also... i think u hav really forget abt my feeling... ya... i am a heartless guy... when u got hurt... i wun be sad... i think thats wat u think... anyway... i think i dun
hav de right to say that to her... that y i hold back that night... i myself also think like this... dun care
abt my own body and think that like this will punish my parents when i die... but thinking of it... i feel is damn stupid... to live my life to the fullest is the only way i can repay my family for bringing me up... and also... if i suffer... i m the only one gonna suffer for the rest of my life... not my parents...
haha... make sense
ritE??
haha... terrible sia... i think.... if pessimistic... i dun think i really can be her bf anymore... so useless... unable to put that smile back onto ur face... but to b optimistic... i think i can barely last to b her bf... haha... my performance is getting from bad to worse... disappointing u more and more... haha... i m just a crappy guy... :(
REally dun have the mood to do anything anymore... I m really sad and angry... wanting to support her but unable to do anything... i think... i m the worst guy she have ever met... hmmm... life is indeed weird sia... make a weird guy keep meeting weird gals... haha... i think this guy will only have 5 chances of having relationship with weird gals ba... and i have used up... haha... sian...